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Sunday, January 25th, 2009
7:40 pm	been a while chinese new year resolution..hehehe... 1. write blog once a week (private) 2. read one new book a month 3. call parents every day 4. write a chapter every week 5. focus better starting now Current Mood: cranky Current Music: airport annoucement (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006
3:51 pm	我的第23 个生日 我的第23个生日非常感动. I can only say: 感恩. 朋友, 家人, 同事... 各个人都为我做了点something....Judy的留言is very kind... I tried typing this in chinese using bable fish...i found co-workers by looking up: same event....oy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
8:48 am	23 So I am 23 years old.i believe my celebration is officially over. It was a very memoriable experience as my coworkers are both sweet and sour...mostly sweet ..but very mbarassaing. Kind words from friends afar makes me ahppy that facebook exists... A sweet weekend in FL is just what I needed. I am tired. My heart moves around like a kite struggling in the hurricane. Sometimes I feel like it is going to break. I am not sure what is holding me down. I need to move on to another project. I need september to come and go. I need to change something..anything...my soul flutters...my heart dreams of a thousand possibilities....what the hell am i writing? Seriously, there is nothing to report....life, which used to be so interesting...is now just life...every wave seems smaller...every accomplishment seems less....where is my joy? My parents are distant..my house is a mess..my bf is not home...and i am out everynight....there is chaos...as though some awkward input screwed up the fomula..the law that guides my heart...I need to break away from my laziness...if only I am not lazy...lol.... Current Mood: contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
10:45 am	Last day as 22 year old A lot happened since I turned 22: I started working...though only on ONE project....--' I have new roommates... I went clubing...vision and 1150 and wild bills..hey it counts... I went to several cool places (mammoth cave, dry tortugas) I went to one new anime convention and found some new mangas that I love (host club~ yah...and Yathuba&!) I had fights with lots of people... I went speed dating (actually, just watching..still funny)... I tried lots of new restruants.. I filled up my gas several times.. I drive...(to the horror of everyone) I started proactive...mirror mirror on the wall.....when will all my zits fall? I started numerous novels....when will I finish anything? I started hockey...yah... I started making jewlry.. I made a big brunch... I found my fav tea place... ~~~ A lot scary things happened, mostly booboo butt's grandpa in the hospital.... ~~~ Great progress with my parents and booboo... ~~~ We had a fight last night...well not really..but I am not talking to him...I just need him to say sorry..instead I just prank call my house constantly...lol......is this the end our honeymoon phase? I donno..hope not... ~~~ I am very excited about this weekend.....turtle beach here we come! (if we are talking) ~~ I am not as depressed as I was when I turned 16. The water works have not started, but I am expecting to let it out tonight...Is part of growing up growing numb? Am I too busy to feel? To evaluate the end of another period of opportunity? Am I too used to change that growing old, which I do every day, every second, seems to be the least of my worries? ~~ Things that I want to do as a 23 year old 1. Go to the doctors 2. Donate things to the Salvation Army 3. Host a garage sale 4. Sale a painting at AWA 5. Cosplay for AWA 6. FINISH a novel...Damnit 7. FINISH knitting a scarf.... 8. Keep in touch with friends.... 9. Keep my room/car clean..oy Current Mood: tired (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
6:11 pm	busy and empty I love books. I can't believe how much I love books. I love mangas, soooooo many mangas.........my life is happy because of books and manga I love friends. I can't believe how much I love friends. I love their complexity and fun....my life is happy because of friends I love food...i cna't believe how much I love food. tea and cakes and bbq and noodles...and cake..and cake.......so much sweetness ...... I love booboo butt...he and I are two monks. An older and younger one. Though we are not sure who is who sometimes...and we travel around life and see all these adventures and i realized that i love love love love being with him....my life is happy because of him.... I have a headache...too much love Current Mood: crazy (Comment on this)
Monday, July 17th, 2006
10:48 pm	Last day as a Chinese I am not sure how to feel. I wonder if I will be different tomorrow at this time. Why is life passing by, and as much as everything change- graduation...work...etc...Emotions are elusive to me.....that makes me sad... Well, tomorrow I will be american (if i pass the test)...I will join the most envied and hated citizenship in the world.... em...too tired to contemplate anymore Current Mood: nostalgic (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 6th, 2006
8:29 am	Ode to my summer life oh summer life...hot and sweaty....where air conditioning should be low and plenty... oh summer life...full and busy...so why do I still feel so ever empty? I have love, and love is grand. With love and dreams, they go hand in hand. I have job, and job is...job. It pays for my condo, gas, and shop. I have family, and family is ...family. They work and bitch, and all seems lovely. I have friends, and friends are great...they talk behind your back, but isn't that what friends do and isn't that fate... I have hobbies, and hobbies are fun...they last only so long before I move to a new one. So why oh why do I feel ever so empty? The clouds drift in and out like a bad fad. With sun it is too hot, without it is sad. And I watch as the hours go by, counting the ways that I should hate life. And I realize that it is not the world that I hate. Oh no, it is not love that I hate, for love holds and cuddles and he is my soulmate. Oh no it is not my job that I hate, I am challenged from day to day. oh no, it is not my family that I hate, they are what god gave me, they are my fate. Oh no, it is not friends that I hate, as friendships are sometimes like really bad dates. oh no, it is not my hobbies that i hate, as hobbies are there to fill my empty days. It is myself that I hate. I have everything that I want and does not deserve. I have so many memories but no will to preserve. So I say, to my love, my job, my family, my friends, and my hobbies: I have failed you in so many ways, but thank you for still deciding to stay. I will try to not drift like the summer clouds, and find happiness in each and every day. PS. there is a HUGE cockcroach in my client's bathroom.... Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
5:45 pm	I got into my car yesterday and looked out my windshield. It appeared a little purple petal has fallen on my it. It was very pretty and thin, almost transparent. The fading vilot color catches the light brilliantly. The I started driving and the petal stayed on....and i started wondering why there is only one and there was no tree around my car...then I thought... is this bird doodoo?! OMG!was my first instinct. Ew! was my second. Then, I was like, wow, why is it purple? Then, what interesting shape! then, good job bird. then, what I began to contemplate...a petal and bird doodoo are equal in beauty, yet because one came from a fragrant plant and the other from a stinky hole of a bird, we often do not notice their similarities.... So what is the lesson learned? It is not where you are from, beauty exists everywhere.... Paris Hilton and the ladies outside of the Hilton in Paris are equally beautiful...... Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
2:56 pm	my life This Is My Life, Rated Life: 6.4 Mind: 5.7 Body: 6.8 Spirit: 6.3 Friends/Family: 2.9 Love: 6 Finance: 7.6 Take the Rate My Life Quiz (Comment on this)
1:33 pm	existing on the internet Scary (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 11th, 2006
9:40 am	Tired from hockey. yep, I suck. >__ (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
8:50 am	Oy Okay, in case no one knows who Gary McKinnon is, he is the guy who hacked into US gov computers...cause some damages...extradited to the US for prosecution...ladiladilada. I normally don't refer to the news, but something about this disturbs me. I present evidence A:   This is the one of three different pics I can google up about this guy. Is the media trying to make him look like a psychopath with that i just woke up smirk and i need a wax brows, and big fluffy hair. Mostly, i think it is the grin. Then the background, wether intentional or not, looks a little pcychodelic. All in all, it looks like his big head and grin is looking at you through your cyber space. very creepy. Even worse, it looks like carrot top's smarter brother is looking at you.... I don't know, I would probably go hack into all the AP and newspaper/news media and replace the picture with something a little less evil genius and little more nice and innocent  (not this one)  (this one maybe) A little more cheeckbone and a little less "i see you" grin. This would make a great paper on how society tend to make "evil" people look uglier. Cause ugly is evil. right?  Of course, Judy would probably counter this with 200000 anime pics of lovely villains. If only one can sue the media for publishing ugly pictures of one's self...then we would be out of the fourth pillar of society now wont we? Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
8:16 am	Wed. I am determined to be happy today. good luck! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
8:21 am	Nothing Because it is a nasty gray monday and I feel like sleeping and I am not. There is nothing to say, so I am not sure why I am typing when I have plenty of things to do. Over the weekend, I saw two people. Both of whom I have not seen in at least a year or more,and the last time we saw each other they were both with different people. I realized something, the world is what it is. Everyone will have reasons for doing shit to others. Some not as bad, others are unforgivable. it is between you and your makers how you decide to play it out... Plus, I wonder how many % of couples meet the other person when they were going out with someone else (your friend or best friend maybe?) I bet it is very high. All is fair in love and war. It took me a while to realize but people are people, self-fish and short-sighted. That is untilyou are 25, then you better start getting serious. So I hope everyone is serious. Otherwise, it is just a game. Games are no fun when you play with other people's emotions. Of couse, I am an outsider. I have no idea how the arrangement is made or came about. So, I have no reason for pointing fingers other than as an outsider and wondering: can't people stop dating their friend's exs? Geez, it is not like there are no other people in this world? Do you ever think about everytime you kiss that person, the same lips have touched your best friends? Do you ever think about every time you wear a color, he or she migh tbe thinking of your best friend? Of course, fate is cruel and ladi ladi lada, ect ect. I have seen enough anime to justify any relationship, but seriously folks, step outside of your immediate friend circles and go catch a new fish. Finally, I hope everyone is happy and not TOO confused by my random scribble. I am not judging you, I am toleranting your actions. That means I don't have to like it or praise you for it or try everything to make you feel beter about yourself. It means I am not going to throw a big "A" on your chest and burn you at the stakes. I am just going to eat my cake, drink my bubble tea, and scibble on my blog. PS. Guys are dogs too ^__^ (present company excluded) (Comment on this)
Friday, May 5th, 2006
8:06 pm	OMG! I DO exist: Iridium Sodium Chloride Powder 99.9% Iridium Sodium Chloride Crystalline 99.9% http://www.dfgoldsmith.com/products.htm Two oxides of iridium are known, namely the sesquioxide, IrfOf, and the dioxide, IrOf, corresponding to which there are two series of salts, the sesqui-salts and the iridic salts; a third series of salts is also known (the iridious salts) derived from an oxide IrO. Iridium sesquioxide, Ir~Of, is obtained when potassium iridium chloride is heated with sodium or potassium carbonates, in a stream of carbon dioxide. It is a bluish-black powder which at high temperatures decomposes into the metal, dioxide and oxygen. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
4:39 pm	Are you kidding me?! You scored as Chinese. Chinese! </td> Chinese 70% Japanese 60% French 60% German 55% American 55% Aussie 55% HongKonger 50% Singaporean 45% Taiwanese 40% British 40% What will you be after reborn? (translation) created with QuizFarm.com Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
8:25 am	Somebody pet me on the head So, big accomplishments in the personal growth of Yina First, the obvious:I started playing hockey yesterday and it was a lot of fun. Skating was not as big of an issue and handling the puck and getting used to all the gear. Everything but my skates were too big (=p), and I looked like a square. I am as wide as I am long. My helmet kept on falling over my face and my mouth guard made me sound really retarded (gaud wob gauf wob)...that is good job. Other than that, everyone was super nice: I really like coaches. They are very very nice. More to come (Comment on this)
Monday, May 1st, 2006
4:20 pm	oy I'm a Mandarin! You're an intellectual, and you've worked hard to get where you are now. You're a strong believer in education, and you think many of the world's problems could be solved if people were more informed and more rational. You have no tolerance for sloppy or lazy thinking. It frustrates you when people who are ignorant or dishonest rise to positions of power. You believe that people can make a difference in the world, and you're determined to try. Talent: 46% Lifer: 36% Mandarin: 49% Take the Talent, Lifer, or Mandarin quiz. (Comment on this)
4:12 pm	interesting If my life were a high-concept movie, it would be Mission: Impossible II (2000) meets The Passion of the Christ (2004). Take the What Is Your High-Concept Movie? quiz. (Comment on this)
4:09 pm	Thanks Judy I'm a Chevrolet Corvette! You're a classic - powerful, athletic, and competitive. You're all about winning the race and getting the job done. While you have a practical everyday side, you get wild when anyone pushes your pedal. You hate to lose, but you hardly ever do. (Comment on this)